Life sucks?

Tortoise. IHATEYOU for making me feel like this again! I know it's temporary but i still used to let you 'sek' so whenever i see you, i admit that i feel kinda regret for not appreciate you last time. Honestly, i miss the time we've spent together. As i told you, no one will give me the feeling you'd given me. There're people out there said you bad or flirty but i guess they don't understand something. Sigh. Why?? WHY you always be the obstacles for me to move on? 

I miss school. I rather go and sit for SPM than staying at home. MUM CAN YOU PLEASE STOP NAGGING ME UH? PLEASE? I'm enough with it! That's my future. Let me do my decision myself. I've grown up, i know how to think, im not a 3 year old kid, can you just gimme some confidence and encouragement? PLEASE ==

So, this is the boyfriend of gradnite, Xiao Hui! :) 

Gradnite is over. It's still okay. Not that awesome i guess? Don't know why. The part i enjoyed the most was the performance of ILOVEYOU baby from my class. Xiao Hui did a really great job. And thanks for helping me so much throughout the performance :) Love you to the max. 

Nothing much about gradnite. I just feel like updating my blog in a sudden. 

This post is specially for angel. :) 

US :) 

I've gone through a lot of difficult situations lately. Cried in the midnight and only you will know it. You told me that there is nothing that i can't handle. What doesnt kill me makes me stronger. When i am at my lowest, be happy because i dont have any lower to go and what's next is bounce back to the highest. You told me that although the whole world may be cruel and there's time i will be feeling like the whole world is crushing down, you guys are there to support the sky! Seriously, i feel so glad of your presence in my life. You inspired me, motivate me, gone through a lot of ups and downs with me. Without you, i will not know how am i to overcome all the difficulties. Thanks for the acceptance you have for me, always forgiving my shortcomings. I wanted to let you know that you are really awesome. You taught me to be authentic with myself . Yes. I am learning to. I couldnt express how much i love you. REALLY. angel, You're the best gift that God has gave me. 

CAMPFIRE @ SMI ! 9TH JUNE 2012! A DAY TO BE REMEMBERED!

FREE DANCE!!! :D that was really the first time i was so high ... Danced and moved around! Scouts and Guides ROCKS, seriously!

I did not expect that it was that fun at first, but at last it did! Cherishing our past, embracing the future :)

FIRE FIRE FIRE!! :P

The banner we did at the very last minute. :P

Rangers! WE ROCKS :D

SEE SEE SEE! THERE IS A REASON I LIKE THIS PHOTO ! :P

CHAMPION FOR OUR SKETCH! P/S IM THE DRIVER HEH HEH!

THIS PICTURE IS AWESOME!! 

I never regret joining rangers. It is better late than never, i made a right decision. I enjoyed a lot , i learnt a lot. Yes, my form five life is so awesome. 

CAMPFIRE AT SMI ON 9TH OF JUNE IS MEMORABLE! Although i just participated in the sketch competition but i never get bored on that day. Ohh, Cheah Yi Lin went there too, HEHE. Early in the morning, all of us went to the basketball court to support the marching teams! AHH! HE IS SO FREAKING YENG WHEN THE COMMANDERS OF EACH SCHOOL REPORTED TO HIM !! Luckily i still can control myself, if not i have already shouted like a mad person that came out from tanjung rambutan. TELL ME. How can i stop getting crazy on him? He is just the way too awesome. 

Cooking competition! Debbie, Lyly, Kwan and another form four girls did a really good job. AMC got the runner up prize ! Congratulations :) Even though our school didn't get any prizes for the iron guide but we are still very proud of Tan Xiao Tong! Luckily you did not faint until need to go to the hospital *touchwood*. We knew that you have tried your best. :) Hunting list. Hong Yi, Melanie and Lee Wai Yee were so expert of it. Wondering how they can successfully got the signature from the committee!  It wasnt that easy! 

The night! I enjoyed that the most! Sketch singing dancing... The awesome-est part was the free dance! Everyone moved to the center of the field and danced and shouted like a crazy mamalia. AHH I ENJOYED THAT A LOT. We got champion for the sketch and singing competition! *bangga* HEHE. And we never expect that we will get anything for our sketch but at last, we did!! Our effort had paid off :) 

Last but not least, thanks for all the 02 Kinta committe for organizing such success and memorable campfire.  You guys worked from 8 a.m till 6 p.m under rain, cloud or the freaking hot sun for 6days straight and get less sleeping time. Hard work really paid off. YOU GUYS ARE AWESOME!!!!

OHHHH!!!!!!! AND AND AND CONGRATULATIONS AMC FOR THE OVERALL CHAMPION!!!! :D LOVE YOU GUYS VERY MUCH :*

 Mabel is as crazy as us! Loveyou Mabel! :P

 Lots of Loves! :D

 Kevinder!! :) He motivated me a lot !!

 First pic : See the contrast ! 

Syn Ey! You're sooooooooooooooooo PRETTY!!!! <3

GYC0612. I didn't know what had happened in the camp but i know that the Gen-y-ers had done a great job and the camp was awesome. :) Long time did not back to PWW but once i was back on last Saturday, i feel so nice when i saw facilitators preparing for the camp and everyone was busy with their own stuff. It's really hard to get everyone together at the centre, especially senior facis.

After the opening ceremony, Kevinder fetched us for breakfast. 7 people squeezed in a car! Bloody hell. Breakfast was great . HEH HEH :P

Closing ceremony. Dedication part ! Everyone cried again ! :) So touching because this was the first time i didn't take part in it and i could see every facilitators and campers cried after the camp! And of course i cried too, I don't know why :) Dinner + supper at stadium after that! Need to wait until the next camp which is after SPM! AHHHh!!!!!! Can't wait for it!

Life.

Time flies. 5 months gone. SPM is getting nearer. Sigh. I really hate myself sometime for being so lazy and like to procrastinate. Urgh! I have no mood to study for exam even though it just left 5 days more. I am worried of Parents' Day this year because of my class teacher. I DONT KNOW. I AM AFRAID, I AM STRESS, I SCARED I WILL FAIL MY THEORY EXAM, I SCARED I CAN'T HAND IN MY ADD MATHS PROJECT ON TIME, I SCARED PRS CAMP CANNOT BE ORGANIZED WELL. :'( :'(

Yes. The girl beside me in the picture, Pey Minn, ex president of PRS, 11A+ and 1A in SPM. Ah! How can she be that successful? Chong Li Xin, wake up please! Last year you was not like this. You was so determined, hardworking, stay positive all the time BUT why you'll be like this dyy ? :(

Shall continue with my add maths project.

HaaHaa! Don't you think this is awesome? #LIKEABOSS! :)

Just finished our February test! SO YEAH. SPM IS GETTING NEARER. -.-!!!

AMIRA KEMBARA TIME!:) BYE

CNY 2012 :)

This is love.

Cny 2012 is kinda awesome. Spending time with family and friends is the best thing in my life. Without them, i'll not be here updating my bloggie :D

CHOR4! Visited 3 houses. Yan Ning's, Ren Jet's and Siew Seem's. It was the day i will never forget in my life. I love you guys, Damn much :)

Chor 5! Chen lao shi house. Awww. It was so meaningful. Chen lao shi! We love you damn much you know? Without you, we will not be able to get good result in UPSR. I wanted to reverse the time!! Tien Tien, the boss, thanks for organising it. It was so successful! At night, Mabel's house :) Okay, with Gen-yers ! All 'lan dou gui'. :)

Chor 6! POOL PARTY! :) !!! Heh luckily didnt get to push inside the pool ! I am safe! Okay. Pool party is simply awesome C:

And today! SUNDAY. SCHOOL GONNA REOPEN. This is sad.
D:

Facis training!

everyone having their burger at 2 in the midnight. This was pre-camp :)

CRAZY PEOPLE!

DANIEL !!!!!!!! :) I MISS GEN-Y VERSION OF MR.SIMPLE :DDD

We rocks!! :)

Facis CHEER!!!!!!!!!!!!! GEN-Y AWESOME, GEN-Y HOU HOU YEH, GEN-Y BAGUS SEKALI, GEN-Y, SATU MALAYSIA!!!!!!! :P

OH YEAH PEOPLE! Morning exercise!! :DDD It was awesome.

Jogging at pologround! :D

GEN-Y !

GYC1211~ Never stop believing !! When the going gets tough, the tough gets going. :)

I just love this photo. Idk why! :P

Facilitator team! We are awesome and we know it :P

GYC1211 individual spiritual award- PHANG REN JET ! :DDDDDD *I AM SEXY AND I KNOW IT* LOL.

HIKING :D The awesome-est part of the camp. I would like to personally thanks Vincent and Keith, the two boys in my team, they really helped us a lot when Shawn was not around that time! I love you guys.

YES BATHING OUTDOOR. Can you imagine that? First time in my life. Kinda FUNNN :P No need to bathe with insects and screaming like insane in the toilet -.-

The very first day of GYC 1211! Exciting!!! Facis team :D

As the first time facilitator, i still have a lot to learn. To all those seniors facis and Mabel Wong, thank you for giving me this golden opportunity to join this big family. I get the chance to learn and to grow. I gained a lot of confidence, i never afraid to speak in front of people anymore and i get to understand people more. It was a very meaningful camp and I actually understand more about myself. I believe the camp had improve me in socializing and even leadership skills. I can see the change in myself after this camp and of course after facilitator training. For me, facilitator training was tough, but it is worth it!

Learn by doing, gain by giving. What Mabel said is so true. If we give 100%of commitment, we will get 100% in return, to be honest, i did not really give my 100% of commitment during this camp, so what i got back was a little bit disappointed . I don't know why. Throughout the camp i was so scared and still lack of confidence, i believe i can do better next time:)

Our hugging session was still that fantastic. I realized that I actually didn't treat my parents right. I often give them an one when I was mad and now I know what is felt when I was given an one. It hurts. I shouldn't have ignoring them and raise hell everytime I'm in bad mood. Besides, I also found out that what goes around, comes around. I was hesitant and not willing to give a four when i was a camper. But slowly I realized that I wouldn't get a hug if I'm not willing to give one. It is similar to, people wouldn't treat you right if you don't treat them right. I can feel the warmth and love of the campers and facis during that session. It was beautiful.

Feeling is natural. It is neither right or wrong. I cried a lot during this camp. I just let it flow because i feel much more comfortable after that. I remembered Yuen Si told us that crying is a brave behavior because you admit your feelings and you are brave enough to go through the pain. In the end, you will heal it.

GYC1211, i love everything. All of them are so beautiful.