I feel it.

Yes. I just finished chatting with Teck Shen. Ah, i feel something. But i really don't know what i feel.
I feel that i am selfish. I do not know how to appreciate anything that someone has done for me with her truth heart. I feel that i am stupid.

He told me everything. Jealousy. He told me about this. I thought they are so sweet. Nothing happened between them but actually i am wrong. He keeps everything inside his heart, suffering. He does not want to let her to be unhappy. He always pretend. He hide everything.

I know how he feels. Last time someone told me the same thing too. I do not care. I feel that someone is very annoying and i always think that i do not do wrong anything, why want to be angry?

After listening to what he has told me. I feel that i am very lucky. Someone treated me nicely, cared for me, gimme everything and i did not appreciate that.

Even those small matter, he will feel jealous and unhappy. And when i think of what i have done to someone, i am really too over. AHHH :(

Teck Shen, you have given me a lesson. Thank you. And i do hope you feel really comfortable with everything. Hope both of you to be happy always ! :D

Torchlight. :)

谢依霖；）
第一次看见你，并没有什么特别的。直到你第一次 interview 我时，我们才开始认识的，开始说嗨。哈哈。那一次的interview并没有让我失望。每一次的 meeting 我也没有怎么去注意你。当时我跟我的朋友坐在一边，都认为你是一个超有能力的领导者，所以每一次选任何活动的 AJK，我们总会第一个提谢依霖这一个名字（我们都怀疑你是否会介意呢）哈哈。

一直到2011年的PRS camp。。。
我开始欣赏你了。我最欣赏你的一点是当你去领导我们的时候，当时没有人敢反对，大家都很心甘情愿地给你去 lead 我们。我更欣赏你的是当你做起事来的时候，你做事时负责任，效 率又高，你真的真的是很棒啊！Camp 的第一天晚上，我真的预料不到你会那么地疯狂的咧！GEE!!! 我是永远不会忘记谢依霖版的GEE, 超棒的！:D 当天晚上我一直告诉每一个人我要跟你告白，他们都说我是傻婆（不过他们还是很支持我的）。呵呵！就在当天我告诉你我要跟你告白但是你的反应只是一声：‘噢’。哇，弄到我真的很无言啊！手电筒这个名呢，就是因为。。。。。当晚咯，你叫都叫不起床，我就用手电筒照你，你还是不起床。我还在你耳边唱GEE给你听，你竟然只是反身，而不是起床，过分！哈哈~ 另外一天当我告诉你是，你的反应到现在我都忘不了. 超好笑的！其实在整个camp 里我都很注意你，你应该不知道吧。

Camp过后，在学校我一直都在注意着你的。直到我生日的前一天。。。 PRS 都为我和 Amanda 举办了一个surprise party。那时候我也未想过你会出现。。当门被打开，灯一亮，我第一个人看见的是你！我真的被吓到，心里有莫名其妙的开心！生日当天，我一起床就收到你的讯息，再一次，我又被吓倒了。其实我想问你很久了。。你怎样有我的电话号码啊？嘻嘻！我要谢谢 Happy Shum 啊。。要不是她我也不会得到我的生日拥抱 :P 这是我最棒的礼物了咧。。哈哈！

还有！PRS trip。虽然只有仅仅的一天，但那是一个很值得的 trip. 我还记得在 HELP college 的时候，我曾经问过你：‘为什么没有 Love Pysco 的’？ 你就在当场捧腹大笑，你很坏啊！在回怡保的路途中，我鼓起了很大的勇气一直跟你谈天。。你还问了我一句话：‘你说了这么多，你不口渴的啊’？哈哈。我那时候就是越讲越爽，不想停下来啊！难得张荔欣在谢依霖的面前有滔滔不绝的一面，你要珍惜啊。。因为现在的我没有那个勇气在跟你说这么多话了：）我会怕D：

FAREWELL! 当天我是司仪，有你在，你说我会不会紧张？那时候我已经尽量让自己松懈下来，一切尽力就好。。连最失仪态的所有动作我都做了出来。。啊！！！你们开心就好：）‘我们会再见’，你哭了。我没有预料你会哭，呵呵，谢依霖也有脆弱的一面. Sharing 是你也哭了。当我抱你时，你竟然根我说：‘傻瓜’！哈哈。那一瞬间温馨的感觉萌上了我的心头 :D

每一次你经过或我看见你时，我都很疯狂，连老师们都知道你是我的偶像叻。。。我看啊，我可以去跟Happy & Carissa 一起去拍一部电影叫《那些年，我们一起疯狂的事情》了。哈哈！中四在学校的生活真的很有趣，可能是因为有你在的关系吧：）

当我需要时，谢谢你一直在我的身边鼓励我。你不像其他人。。有些人知道当有学妹仰慕或欣赏他们时，大部分的人一定不会对那位学妹好或者是对她不理不睬。谢依霖就不同了！反而她对我更好，更照顾我。我还记得有一次我生病了，你特地陪我回班，唠叨的叫我回家，喝多点水，好好休息。。晚上你就讯息我了。。啊，那种感觉真的很温馨。。很舒服：） 我在英国那一个月，很难熬啊! 一个月没得看见我的大电筒就像一个月没有看见太阳似的，超想念你的。直到有一天我在那拨电话给你，你的叫声啊！！！我的耳膜啊！！！幸好还没破！我一回到马来西亚，第一个就讯息你了。料不到你竟然会打给我。超开心的！：）哈！

John and Mary 的故事，不晓得你还记得。Physics, Convex lenses, Concave lenses, 谢谢你愿意抽时间教我。你很有耐心，把所有东西都教得很清楚，你真的是一个 study smart 的人：）

有谢依霖在，没人敢欺负小电筒，对吧？你，真的要毕业了，你不在学校的日子，我会很不习惯，我会觉得很空虚。得空时，多点回来学校啊。。不过明年你又去NS。。三个月。。三个月咧！！我们都不会联络：（ 我要告诉你，我会好好加油的，谢依霖不会轻易放弃，我也不会因为我们都不是省油的灯。你告诉我你还蛮相信缘份，所以很珍惜相遇，同时也很珍惜我。。。同样的我也会珍惜你，无论去到那里我都不会忘记谢依霖，我最棒的手电筒，最棒的姐姐C： 谢谢你，爱你！

:P

HEH YAY FIINALLY EXAM IS OVER !
Back to my awesome life!!

Life after back from London is so much more better without you! Haha Thankyou for saying the word to me because without you i'm much more happy ! Well i admit that i was suffer for few days at London but once i am back to Malaysia, i realize that i don't need you actually HAHAHA
:D

Torchlight, you really with light bulb one ah? I'm so sad D: I couldn't believe that you know because you are not that type of people. Oh well, LOVE IS BLIND :D Thanks for you John and Mary story, thanks for your encouragement, thanks for your caring! Everything you've done for me, i appreciate LOTS :) love you :D

Babeh! You made me break my own record. Away from facebook for one month more! Not much to say, and all i wanted to say is I heart you babeh :D

Life after exam.

Co practise.
Piano exam.(This one kills me seriously)
Hang out!
Movie!
Booklet!
Facebook!
Ipad!

And more and more and more!
Sleep now!
GOODBYE :P

16/7/2011。。。

It’s PRS farewell. The day which is meaningful but I don’t hope that it will come… Why can’t we get all the people together in the world that we really like and then just stay together? It’s always sad to say goodbye.. Time flies and our Form5s’ are going to leave us. Those moments that we’ve been through together will be a memorable chapter in our life that we will never forget.. The times when we spent 2 days in the camp, in MKT camp, and we went for a one day trip to college..Those moments were so enjoyable and fun.. And also the days we spent together to practice our marching..Although we were not the champion, but the time, tears and sweats that we had sacrifices had already witness our victory.. Deep in our heart, we are already the best of all!

Cheah Yi Lin,my big torchlight. Thankyou so much. You’ve brighten up my life and you made me to become a better person. Sometimes, I feel that myself is too over you but I really hope that you won’t mind that. Today, you gave me the second and the third hug. I love the second hug. Both of us were crying and we were hugging tightly with each other. And you whispered :’ Sha Gua!Bu yao ku le!’ I love this feeling. The third hug, the hug before you leave the hall…… I missed it very much. ‘Wey, torchlight! Wo yao zou le…Bu yao ku le.. ‘ and you was looking at me .. giving me a sweet smile!! Ahh… I can’t stop with my tears. Torchlight, bu yao zou L Sighhhh! Yilin, I didn’t expect that you will cry during the sharing section. You really shocked me! The second time I saw you crying. When you cried I have no idea why my tears will flow out automatically. *I feel that I’m bit of abnormal* I love what you said .. You said that 你们在外面无论听到关于什么PRS的风风雨雨，都不必去管它。。我很喜欢prs,因为在PRS里我感觉到很舒服。。就好像你在外面发生了什么不愉快的事，当你来到prs时。。*tears rolling down*我们真的很像一个大家庭。。。 YES.. What she said was so true.. Lin, we will miss you and love you, now and always! :D

Amanda. Thankyou for giving me a chance to lead people. Thankyou for giving me a chance to gain back my confidence. Thankyou for giving me a chance to be who I am. Thankyou for giving me a chance which not everyone has that opportunity to have that chance. Too many thankyou and I really appreaciate all of them. :D When you are graduated, when you feel lonely, when you need someone to be your listener, just look back. I am just behind you. Helping and supporting you all the time. Mama, I will never leave you alone there. I will always by your side. Now and always. J I love you, ever...and ever...and...EVER!!!!!

Pey minn.... Yoi Ying.. Pei Qi... And others senior… Thankyou for your guidance and all of us really appreciate it. You guys made me to be more confident… I couldn’t believe that me, myself have the confident to speak infront of you guys.. Last time, I was just sitting there quietly but now… I have changed.. I have became more mature and I dare to do many things that I don’t expext myself will do that. Seniors, you all don’t have to worry because we will lead PRS into a new and wonderful chapter.. Besides that, I dare to just be myself when I am with you guys because all of you will always support me and give me a lot of faith :P

All the form 5 seniors. Thankyou for everything. WE LOVE YOU :D

Bitch.

I am so damn pissed off NOW. Bitches. Fake people everywhere. If you don't know anything just keep your mouth SHUT. It is your own problem and YOU still blame people, please respect others. scolding dirty things in fb will make you proud? You are just dirtying your image. Dirty things, who don't know how to scold? Stfu la. Whatever. Alike what Fan told me today:' don't compete with those kids!' LOL.

Alvin. Thankyou for last night. First time. First time you console me. I'm quite touch. You're really funny sometimes. 'Wipe your tears and put a smile on your chubby face!' haha. You dah mature :D

Carissa and Jien Shin. Thankyou for willing listen to me. I know you guys punya ears going to burst. haha!!

And tortoiseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. I REALLY HATE THAT PERSON. !@#$%^&*

Whatever. I need to calm now. Phiewwwwwww.

Dream high! Goodbye :*

Lychee

Hahahaha i know this is funneh!! I feel like slapping myself when i look at the pictures. Anyway, Lychee without her braces, feels so weird. And i don't want 'chi lei gen' ! Hahah. Okay, lazy to update more. Stop here. E-E-E!! C:

Michael Jackson - Hold My Hand Duet With Akon ft. Akon

GLEE - Marry You

Erkhem erkhemmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
010111 ! :D
241210! :D
211210 ! :D

I wanna back to December :/
Imissyou :/
Hope you are not escaping me *erkhem*
and *erkhem erkhem* Congratulations! :)

I love everything. Thanks for the Christmas present :) I appreciate it LOTS ! :)

PRS ! :D

Yilinnnnn :D

Joey's Patrick :D

AWWW! CUTTIE. SEE. Loveyouu!

HEH HEH. I admire HER!

Woots. Fan cooking ! This photo is so worthy!

i love them! :P

awesome group-aphrodite! Winner of cooking competition! Best group ever :D

Committeeeeee!!! ZEUS, GOGOGO !

Dang dang dang!

Receive our prizes! It is awesome.

Wonderful night ever !

We deserve it ! :D

Teacher's son! HE IS SO FREAKING CUTE !!

hELLO BABY, ily! :)


YES. WONDERFUL AND MEMORABLE NIGHT.

I love all the teachers in I-ZON very much.
I still remembered last year before PMR, they treated everyone of us ice-cream and talked many things that made us so touch!
All of the teachers there done many things for us, thankyou very much! I appreciate it.
12-3-2011, an awesome night. The dinner was really successful! Haha.
And i am so lucky that i got a speaker for the lucky prize!! OH YAY :)

Lastly, thankyouu and i won't forget all of you :D

Finally.

Haha. This is CUTE. :)

Oh yay, finally it comes to holidays BUT ..............
CO practices.
PRS camp.
Tuitions.
Homeworks.

They spoilt my holidays seriously. I thought i can take enough of sleep for 1 week and stay at home do some revision BUT :( Practices for the concert are too over dy. EVERYDAY 8 TO 5. Damn. Damn. DAMN.

Anyway, Finally Alvin is back after disappeared for 1 week. I am so hyper seeing him posting his status and changing his profile pic. He seldom do these kind of things. So inactive in fb. Haha. Didn't meet him for long time ady and i miss NIVLA so much. Haha :D

AND MY RESULT FOR THE FORM 4 MARCH TEST. I shouln't say it's too bad or excellent. To me, it's quite okay EXCEPT for the additional difficult maths. 42 marks ! Since primary school until now, i didnt get below 50 marks for every subject before, but this time YOU- ADD MATHS broke my record. I will remember you and you will fall in love with me one day!

I am so hungry. AGAIN. I should go and eat now. Bye... :)

March. 1 more month to go!

Yes. Exam. Stress. Although it is just a March test but i am studying like it is a mid-year exam. My eyes bag is getting bigger. SEE, UGLEH. anyway, left Add Maths and Moral on Monday, WOOHOO. I swear i will study really hard after this test. No more burning midnight oil the next exam. Form 4 is so tough. I hate it :( I don't know how many subjects will i fail for this test. HAHA Nevermind. Teacher says:' Embrace failure!' -.- LOL.

Heh heh ! Concert after the holidays! Going back to school everyday during the holidays. Darn. I will skip, maybe ! Hahaha.

My whole head is just full of exam right now. And yea. Wednesday night. I was so hyper after receiving your message babehhh! :) I have changed my class, awww i gotta miss youuuu VERY VERY MUCH!

I love you, not for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you.

:D

Hectic.

Yes. I still miss my CNY so much. Cousins back from England made me hyper seriously. Texting with Alvin made me LMAO everyday. Receiving angpau and GAMBLING made me smiling and shouting all the day. Hahaha :D AND EATING, MADE ME GETTING FATTER ! :(

Okay. Chinese New Year passed. How sad. March test , 4 more days left. Haven't start to study at all. Tonnes of homework. Tuitions. Cocuriculum. Camp. SIghh. I just hate Form 4 life so much. VERY MUCH :( Get scolded by teacher. I am so enough for that. I hate you freaking much. So please just SHUT UP! Every night, my eyes will start to become pain and red and i can't see anything clearly, someone kill me please.

Okay, back to some happy lil things! HEH HEH.

'Cause I'm all about him, him, him, him, him
And he's all about me, me, me, me, me
And we don't give a dang, dang, dang, dang, dang
About nobody-e-e-e . '

Hahaha. Yes! Nice song 'All about him' :) I was so hyper after listening to this song everytime! Thankyouuu Babehh :D

Well end here. Time for revision and homework. Bowie is recommanding songs for me. Haha so BYE :D

JJ Lin 林俊傑 - 她說 She Says MV

Bye holidays. Hello school :)

Byebye 2010 HELLO 2011 :)

A brand new year but i don't wish for school reopen. I'm still in holidays mood. Argh. :( Well, my holidays! ILOVEMYHOLIDAYS :) Spent lots of time with primary school friends. Let's see. Some of the pics here :D

PMR results day! WE DID IT ♥ :)
Hope to same class with Curreh. Work hard together again! :)

ISC ♥! They are so awesome :D
Hahaha. 1 head :D
:)


Teck Shen's 16th birthday ! ♥ Teck Shennnnnn ♥ ! Snookerrrrr pro.
Alvin Lee Boon Keat. He is gay! But i like it babeh! HAHAHAHA

Happy birthday !:P
Hmmmm. It's bit blur. but i still like it ! :)
BAHAHAH! The awesome singers ♥!

School reopen!! Today is the first day. Gah. Orientation, sien q die me. I rather sleep at home :/ I am so happy and satisfied with my timetable right now. It will be tired and busy and i do like it. I'll work harder ♥!! Heh. Work hard with meeeeee :) Heheh. I miss them so much. Please let me back to December! :)

Hmm. Dum tortoise went back to school today! Haha. Anyway, thanks for the 060910 ♥ . :D

Last but not least, CARISSA TAN I HAVE UPDATED MY BLOG!! HAHAHAHA.