Life.

Time flies. 5 months gone. SPM is getting nearer. Sigh. I really hate myself sometime for being so lazy and like to procrastinate. Urgh! I have no mood to study for exam even though it just left 5 days more. I am worried of Parents' Day this year because of my class teacher. I DONT KNOW. I AM AFRAID, I AM STRESS, I SCARED I WILL FAIL MY THEORY EXAM, I SCARED I CAN'T HAND IN MY ADD MATHS PROJECT ON TIME, I SCARED PRS CAMP CANNOT BE ORGANIZED WELL. :'( :'(

Yes. The girl beside me in the picture, Pey Minn, ex president of PRS, 11A+ and 1A in SPM. Ah! How can she be that successful? Chong Li Xin, wake up please! Last year you was not like this. You was so determined, hardworking, stay positive all the time BUT why you'll be like this dyy ? :(

Shall continue with my add maths project.

HaaHaa! Don't you think this is awesome? #LIKEABOSS! :)

Just finished our February test! SO YEAH. SPM IS GETTING NEARER. -.-!!!

AMIRA KEMBARA TIME!:) BYE

CNY 2012 :)

This is love.

Cny 2012 is kinda awesome. Spending time with family and friends is the best thing in my life. Without them, i'll not be here updating my bloggie :D

CHOR4! Visited 3 houses. Yan Ning's, Ren Jet's and Siew Seem's. It was the day i will never forget in my life. I love you guys, Damn much :)

Chor 5! Chen lao shi house. Awww. It was so meaningful. Chen lao shi! We love you damn much you know? Without you, we will not be able to get good result in UPSR. I wanted to reverse the time!! Tien Tien, the boss, thanks for organising it. It was so successful! At night, Mabel's house :) Okay, with Gen-yers ! All 'lan dou gui'. :)

Chor 6! POOL PARTY! :) !!! Heh luckily didnt get to push inside the pool ! I am safe! Okay. Pool party is simply awesome C:

And today! SUNDAY. SCHOOL GONNA REOPEN. This is sad.
D:

Facis training!

everyone having their burger at 2 in the midnight. This was pre-camp :)

CRAZY PEOPLE!

DANIEL !!!!!!!! :) I MISS GEN-Y VERSION OF MR.SIMPLE :DDD

We rocks!! :)

Facis CHEER!!!!!!!!!!!!! GEN-Y AWESOME, GEN-Y HOU HOU YEH, GEN-Y BAGUS SEKALI, GEN-Y, SATU MALAYSIA!!!!!!! :P

OH YEAH PEOPLE! Morning exercise!! :DDD It was awesome.

Jogging at pologround! :D

GEN-Y !

GYC1211~ Never stop believing !! When the going gets tough, the tough gets going. :)

I just love this photo. Idk why! :P

Facilitator team! We are awesome and we know it :P

GYC1211 individual spiritual award- PHANG REN JET ! :DDDDDD *I AM SEXY AND I KNOW IT* LOL.

HIKING :D The awesome-est part of the camp. I would like to personally thanks Vincent and Keith, the two boys in my team, they really helped us a lot when Shawn was not around that time! I love you guys.

YES BATHING OUTDOOR. Can you imagine that? First time in my life. Kinda FUNNN :P No need to bathe with insects and screaming like insane in the toilet -.-

The very first day of GYC 1211! Exciting!!! Facis team :D

As the first time facilitator, i still have a lot to learn. To all those seniors facis and Mabel Wong, thank you for giving me this golden opportunity to join this big family. I get the chance to learn and to grow. I gained a lot of confidence, i never afraid to speak in front of people anymore and i get to understand people more. It was a very meaningful camp and I actually understand more about myself. I believe the camp had improve me in socializing and even leadership skills. I can see the change in myself after this camp and of course after facilitator training. For me, facilitator training was tough, but it is worth it!

Learn by doing, gain by giving. What Mabel said is so true. If we give 100%of commitment, we will get 100% in return, to be honest, i did not really give my 100% of commitment during this camp, so what i got back was a little bit disappointed . I don't know why. Throughout the camp i was so scared and still lack of confidence, i believe i can do better next time:)

Our hugging session was still that fantastic. I realized that I actually didn't treat my parents right. I often give them an one when I was mad and now I know what is felt when I was given an one. It hurts. I shouldn't have ignoring them and raise hell everytime I'm in bad mood. Besides, I also found out that what goes around, comes around. I was hesitant and not willing to give a four when i was a camper. But slowly I realized that I wouldn't get a hug if I'm not willing to give one. It is similar to, people wouldn't treat you right if you don't treat them right. I can feel the warmth and love of the campers and facis during that session. It was beautiful.

Feeling is natural. It is neither right or wrong. I cried a lot during this camp. I just let it flow because i feel much more comfortable after that. I remembered Yuen Si told us that crying is a brave behavior because you admit your feelings and you are brave enough to go through the pain. In the end, you will heal it.

GYC1211, i love everything. All of them are so beautiful.

I feel it.

Yes. I just finished chatting with Teck Shen. Ah, i feel something. But i really don't know what i feel.
I feel that i am selfish. I do not know how to appreciate anything that someone has done for me with her truth heart. I feel that i am stupid.

He told me everything. Jealousy. He told me about this. I thought they are so sweet. Nothing happened between them but actually i am wrong. He keeps everything inside his heart, suffering. He does not want to let her to be unhappy. He always pretend. He hide everything.

I know how he feels. Last time someone told me the same thing too. I do not care. I feel that someone is very annoying and i always think that i do not do wrong anything, why want to be angry?

After listening to what he has told me. I feel that i am very lucky. Someone treated me nicely, cared for me, gimme everything and i did not appreciate that.

Even those small matter, he will feel jealous and unhappy. And when i think of what i have done to someone, i am really too over. AHHH :(

Teck Shen, you have given me a lesson. Thank you. And i do hope you feel really comfortable with everything. Hope both of you to be happy always ! :D

Torchlight. :)

谢依霖；）
第一次看见你，并没有什么特别的。直到你第一次 interview 我时，我们才开始认识的，开始说嗨。哈哈。那一次的interview并没有让我失望。每一次的 meeting 我也没有怎么去注意你。当时我跟我的朋友坐在一边，都认为你是一个超有能力的领导者，所以每一次选任何活动的 AJK，我们总会第一个提谢依霖这一个名字（我们都怀疑你是否会介意呢）哈哈。

一直到2011年的PRS camp。。。
我开始欣赏你了。我最欣赏你的一点是当你去领导我们的时候，当时没有人敢反对，大家都很心甘情愿地给你去 lead 我们。我更欣赏你的是当你做起事来的时候，你做事时负责任，效 率又高，你真的真的是很棒啊！Camp 的第一天晚上，我真的预料不到你会那么地疯狂的咧！GEE!!! 我是永远不会忘记谢依霖版的GEE, 超棒的！:D 当天晚上我一直告诉每一个人我要跟你告白，他们都说我是傻婆（不过他们还是很支持我的）。呵呵！就在当天我告诉你我要跟你告白但是你的反应只是一声：‘噢’。哇，弄到我真的很无言啊！手电筒这个名呢，就是因为。。。。。当晚咯，你叫都叫不起床，我就用手电筒照你，你还是不起床。我还在你耳边唱GEE给你听，你竟然只是反身，而不是起床，过分！哈哈~ 另外一天当我告诉你是，你的反应到现在我都忘不了. 超好笑的！其实在整个camp 里我都很注意你，你应该不知道吧。

Camp过后，在学校我一直都在注意着你的。直到我生日的前一天。。。 PRS 都为我和 Amanda 举办了一个surprise party。那时候我也未想过你会出现。。当门被打开，灯一亮，我第一个人看见的是你！我真的被吓到，心里有莫名其妙的开心！生日当天，我一起床就收到你的讯息，再一次，我又被吓倒了。其实我想问你很久了。。你怎样有我的电话号码啊？嘻嘻！我要谢谢 Happy Shum 啊。。要不是她我也不会得到我的生日拥抱 :P 这是我最棒的礼物了咧。。哈哈！

还有！PRS trip。虽然只有仅仅的一天，但那是一个很值得的 trip. 我还记得在 HELP college 的时候，我曾经问过你：‘为什么没有 Love Pysco 的’？ 你就在当场捧腹大笑，你很坏啊！在回怡保的路途中，我鼓起了很大的勇气一直跟你谈天。。你还问了我一句话：‘你说了这么多，你不口渴的啊’？哈哈。我那时候就是越讲越爽，不想停下来啊！难得张荔欣在谢依霖的面前有滔滔不绝的一面，你要珍惜啊。。因为现在的我没有那个勇气在跟你说这么多话了：）我会怕D：

FAREWELL! 当天我是司仪，有你在，你说我会不会紧张？那时候我已经尽量让自己松懈下来，一切尽力就好。。连最失仪态的所有动作我都做了出来。。啊！！！你们开心就好：）‘我们会再见’，你哭了。我没有预料你会哭，呵呵，谢依霖也有脆弱的一面. Sharing 是你也哭了。当我抱你时，你竟然根我说：‘傻瓜’！哈哈。那一瞬间温馨的感觉萌上了我的心头 :D

每一次你经过或我看见你时，我都很疯狂，连老师们都知道你是我的偶像叻。。。我看啊，我可以去跟Happy & Carissa 一起去拍一部电影叫《那些年，我们一起疯狂的事情》了。哈哈！中四在学校的生活真的很有趣，可能是因为有你在的关系吧：）

当我需要时，谢谢你一直在我的身边鼓励我。你不像其他人。。有些人知道当有学妹仰慕或欣赏他们时，大部分的人一定不会对那位学妹好或者是对她不理不睬。谢依霖就不同了！反而她对我更好，更照顾我。我还记得有一次我生病了，你特地陪我回班，唠叨的叫我回家，喝多点水，好好休息。。晚上你就讯息我了。。啊，那种感觉真的很温馨。。很舒服：） 我在英国那一个月，很难熬啊! 一个月没得看见我的大电筒就像一个月没有看见太阳似的，超想念你的。直到有一天我在那拨电话给你，你的叫声啊！！！我的耳膜啊！！！幸好还没破！我一回到马来西亚，第一个就讯息你了。料不到你竟然会打给我。超开心的！：）哈！

John and Mary 的故事，不晓得你还记得。Physics, Convex lenses, Concave lenses, 谢谢你愿意抽时间教我。你很有耐心，把所有东西都教得很清楚，你真的是一个 study smart 的人：）

有谢依霖在，没人敢欺负小电筒，对吧？你，真的要毕业了，你不在学校的日子，我会很不习惯，我会觉得很空虚。得空时，多点回来学校啊。。不过明年你又去NS。。三个月。。三个月咧！！我们都不会联络：（ 我要告诉你，我会好好加油的，谢依霖不会轻易放弃，我也不会因为我们都不是省油的灯。你告诉我你还蛮相信缘份，所以很珍惜相遇，同时也很珍惜我。。。同样的我也会珍惜你，无论去到那里我都不会忘记谢依霖，我最棒的手电筒，最棒的姐姐C： 谢谢你，爱你！